MY REFLECTION

Sometimes I don’t recognize the girl in the mirror.

…and other times I look at my reflection and feel with every fiber of my bones that this IS the women I always wanted to see looking back at me.

For most of my life there was a certain image there, clothes that fit me since high school, a body that didn’t change much no matter how hard I tried (except for paying for obvious enhancements)

A few years ago, things started to change.

Dr Brog and his quiet way of stopping me dead in my tracks when pointing out disrespect that others show me and that I show myself. In his way of saying with loving force, “your appetite must be a priority over everything else”. That statement rocked me to my core and really changed my focus and ultimately my entire trajectory.

There are more people I could list but that would go on forever and that’s not the point here. The point is as I’m typing this I realized that the biggest person who created, unraveled, went home, found my bones, found my voice, put more meat on my being, has been ME.

It’s funny how often when we start to think about our growth we immediately start talking about the other people that played a part…giving them all of the credit. And don’t get me wrong, I believe in paying homage where it is due.

I also believe that we need to normalize giving OURSELVES CREDIT FIRST.

Because I know this from experience on both sides of the coin- you can have the best professional there is on your side but if YOU don’t step up and do the things necessary to grow, excavate, build awareness, etc- then it will never work.

So why are we so quick to dismiss the part we play in our existence here on this planet?

I mean, the “good”, the “bad”, and everything in between— you play a part and the quickly you start taking responsibility for that (WITHOUT judgement on yourself)-the closer you will get to whatever it is that you desire your life to be like.

Back to this photo…..she may not have mermaid hair, she may have more meat on her bones, she may say way less than she used to, AND she’s more whole and solid than she’s ever been. Ever.

Life is what you make it, babe.
So make moves when you feel like you need to.
Stay still when you feel like you need to.
Be loud when it strikes.
Be silent when it serves.
Seek counsel and allow people to support you in a way that allows you to truly flourish and guide your own ship.
Breathe deeply more.
Exhale loudly often.
And don’t forget to let yourself enjoy the ride.
You. Got. This.