What happens when it all actually starts coming to fruition? 
Like the BIG parts of it all… all of the little things working out, or getting worked out along the way that were so in alignment and felt so right, so intentional, but also still like so many steps…when the thing that all of those “smaller” parts were all leading up to.
What then?
Whelp, I’ll tell you that lately it’s felt quite scary. But in the best ways.
I’ve had to catch old thought patterns many times and reframe A LOT in real time to keep reminding myself that I must remain OPEN TO RECEIVE all of these things that I’ve been lining up for in the first place.
You see, I think it’s far too easy to get caught up in the journey, the stepping stones, the foundation building that when you’re past that point, when the house it standing, and beautiful that you switch into a different mode.
You switch out of “in the works” on some things and start to acknowledge that those things that felt like they were in the works forever, are now actually happening.
That it’s all paying off.
Because the truth is, it’s impossible to keep reaching new heights and new levels of existence if you don’t allow yourself to fully recognize and honor the grow that you’ve been achieving along the way.
You’ll never feel satisfied or accomplished if you never let yourself look around at all you’ve ALREADY accomplished on the path.
Those stepping stones?
They were a necessary part of the big plan and doing those things, sticking to that plan, staying true to what you believe and you desire… THAT in itself is the accomplishment you need to put weight onto.
I spent far too many years thinking it wasn’t enough. I wasn’t enough. The income wasn’t where it should be. The team needed work. The branding could be better. and on and on and on…
As a result, I never felt GOOD about anything for more than a second or two.
And that SUCKS.
Why do we choose to live that way? When it really is just a choice after all.
I don’t think we know any better really. In a world that moves so quickly, we’re practically trained to jump rapidly from one thing to another, never taking a breath, never looking around, never feeling like enough.
Living like that almost killed me, a couple of times.
I’m beyond grateful for the awakening (if you’d like to call it that) that I experienced a few years back that brought the absolute insanity of that way of thinking and existing really was.
It’s taken years, countless amounts of hours of talking to myself or someone on my team of professionals, and commitment to shift out of that and into the place I am standing today. I never knew I could be running so many moving pieces of my life and still have things be so peaceful (most of the time).
Still layers. So many layers.
Like recently when I said I was scared of hiring the two new members onto my already fairly large team, and about the decision to commit to my partner on a different level that’s about to change both of our lives in such a huge way.
All scary. All based on old stories, old stories that would love to keep me in a place of believing that it’s not enough yet, that I’m not enough yet, that I don’t deserve to have or receive the things I’ve earned and work towards as well as the things I’m so grateful to have been gifted.
The conversations around these things never end, they just get easier and quicker to catch.
So do yourself a favor and start acknowledging the wins NOW. Each stage, each step, each win. That is truly what will land you in the place of honoring the badass, incredible human you are, not only when it all comes together and the big picture comes to life fully, but the incredible human you are along the way.
You are worthy of it all.