“I know you haven’t made your mind up yet but I would never do you wrong. I’ve known it since the first time that we met, there’s no doubt in my mind where you belong”
Maybe people are right, maybe I am used to getting my way. Maybe I’m used to putting in the effort needed, busting my ass for what I want and actually getting it. But not here. Not in this situation. You refuse to let me win. Refuse to give me what I want more than anything else… Even though I truly believe that it is what you want too. It doesn’t make sense at all why being stubborn is more appetizing to you than everything you know we could be.
Shameless is the word. It really is. I have worked SO hard to build the life that I have. To prove to the entire world that I can do it on my own. That I don’t need anyone. And while that remains true I am not too prideful to admit that I want someone there… Life is truly too short.
“You see in all my life I never found what I couldn’t resist, what I couldn’t turn down. I can walk away from anyone I ever knew but I can’t walk away from you”.
To everyone else and in every other situation I appear to be the strongest one in the room. And don’t get me wrong, I like it that way but then I get in the car or sit on the porch with my family or accomplish anything at all and I want you there. That’s what it comes down to. I want to share these things with you.
But then I wonder..am I that big of a fool? If you want someone you go after them, right? You do whatever you can to have them. Am I really going to chase someone? No, not me.
So maybe I’m just stuck. Stuck wanting something like we once had.
It is the truth that what’s meant to be will be. I’m a true romantic but at the same time a realist. There will come a time I will have to get over it…I just haven’t figured how to do that yet. But I will. I always figure it out and make it through. Always have, always will.